I'm back :D

Hello (:

What a year 2009 had been. 1 year passed so fast ya? Well, I've decided to continue blogging since i cant do homework when i am at home. So yeah might as well spend time reflecting and maybe use my blog as a memory. Lots and lots of things has happened. If you aren't that updated I'm sorry haha (:

Studies are rather well managed so far. Tests are okay but not up to expectations. Aiming so high, expected to attain it, and fail to do so. Yeah it's kinda demoralizing but oh well, I'll work really hard for the upcoming tests. Sp life is really quite okay though. Lotsa free time and can use that time to complete homework and speed ahead way in front of other people! (Y) Weakest subjects are still economics and GP. Seriously cant get economics but i know i will if i put in the effort. I guess I'm just plain lazy. My bad habit is starting already. SLEEPING. Although so much lesser from last year, but i still do have late nights and the next day I'll be darn tired. Luckily i have good friends that wake me up (and KNOW HOW TO make me stay awake). (: Thank God. North Zone is already over, came in 2nd place while NYJC won the championship. I didn't play anyway.. Hopefully next year. Nationals we started off really great. Won NUS high 3-0, ACJC 2-0. Then we lost to NYJC 2-1 and RJC 2-1. Rather unlucky games though. We'll be playing JJC on Monday and hopefully we'll win and make it through to the quarter finals. Feeling so useless on the bench in all the matches. What are the chances of anwar getting injured? Just imagine training so hard and improving so much for 1 whole year, and in the end getting taken over but some guy who recently just came into the team. Yeah okay life is unfair sometimes. Imagine next year the same thing happens. Understand how reluctant i am to quit? But giving up is not really the solution. Thanks jinghui for talking to me(: I'll train hard, heck teng, and be the best GK there is. Me and the sp soccer are going to bring SRJC to the semi finals at least.

I'm a person that doesn't really voice out my feelings, and i know that it's very bad to do so. I'll just show my emotions through my behavior like acting really sad or so. I'm sorry. After reading your blog i am quite speechless. I'm like that. I do try. But yeah i fail miserably. That's the way i am and yea i can try to change, but not to the extent that will suit you perfectly. What i say i really do mean it. No contradictions. I know for myself. It's up to you to believe. Like I've said, i don't show it at all. Sometimes i really do wonder how to juggle my time. I'm very lousy i know. So it's also very hard to understand your feelings at any point of time. You don't deserve someone who makes you cry. Even if you do cry very easily, your perfect one won't make you cry at all you understand? I don't want you to get your feelings messed up. I don't want you to be confused. I don't want you to doubt me anymore. I don't want you to keep guessing my thoughts. When you do this i really feel regrets. Like what i should have done and should not have done. I don't take you for granted. I'm serious. But anyways, life does go on. Sometimes we really have to let go of certain things. I'm really sorry. Every night i ponder and ponder and ponder, and i don't get anywhere. I feel quite useless.
Please stay happy. <3